James M Wheeler, Esq.

I like history. I was thinking about this quote when writing about the notes to Rodya but I couldn't remember it exactly, I had to find it.

I was thinking about how I want my life to be an investment, and perhaps it's very selfish of me to want to know that before I die. I want to see people inspired by me, I want to know that I did something that will change things, hopefully for the better.

I suppose everyone does this, from presidents to paupers, everyone wants to be different, to have a voice in the teeming mass of human experience. Why should I be any different than some Chinese farmer who died yesterday? He touched people, his family, his friends, the earth. But he was nothing to me except another grain of sand. I just want to clog up the hourglass for a few seconds.

Speaking of the hourglass, I'm short on time. I have a theatre to dash off to and a lovely lady to call and awaken. Maybe tonight I'll ponder the importance of inspiration. It's not just a one way thing. I know people who inspire me, and does their inspiration in turn force inspiration out of me? Maybe it's more communal than I'm thinking it. Maybe it's a pool of power to affect the human experience, to affect history. As all we demagogues would, I'd like to change it myself, but I do believe in the power of community.

Wow this has been rambly. I just needed to think for a while. Less serious tomorrow, I promise. I'll write about whatever this theatre performance is.

Love

~J